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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Great Lakes area
Posts: 409
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Member
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Great Lakes area
Posts: 409
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Chaos
Father in law passed yesterday morning. He's been in the hospital since June. My husbands and my parents live a few blocks from each other so we packed everything up to go stay at my moms
So did my sister and her husband which is my husbands brother.
<giving all time to process...>
Too many people at my moms and animals. Movement, sound, tv, talking, just too much. It was chaos to me. Before, I could have and have handled it. All my symptoms went crazy. Hubby packed all my stuff and took me and the animals home
There are 8 kids on one side and 8 kids on the other side, aunts, uncles, friends. Such a huge celebration of life which is beautiful. I made it for a bit but will have to nap. Miss that never ending energy but I'm thankful to be alive and able to participate as much as I can.
I can't handle chaos anymore. Simple is best even when it comes to the decorating in our home. Simple life.
I follow a young girl of 15 that is going to die any time now. She has a tumor at the base of her skull. It's inoperable and has not responded to treatment. Even at 43 I have lived a great and eventful life. This little one is just a pup. I think of her now when I want to get mad at my situation and I am determined to live as much as I can and try to accept when I must sit out.
Life is unpredictable and not a guarantee. Live as much as you can any way you have to with those you love.
Jenna
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*TBI with mild to severe damage November 2012 from car crash. Stroke with hemorage & 4 clots in veins in brain Feb/Mar 2015.
*Vestibular damage, PCS, hypercusis, severe visual processing and tracking issues, short term memory loss, headaches/migraines, occipital neuralgia, cognitive issues, neurological issues, brain fog, brain fatigue when over stimulated, twitching, vertigo, neck issues, nerve issues, PTSD, personality change, Since stroke left side weakness, rage, worsening of vestibular problems, recall, speech, memory.
*Can't drive or work. Have done occupational therapy, cognitive therapy, physical therapy. Learning work arounds, and strategies to be competent in daily life. Change your attitude/perspective changes your life. As TBI survivors this is a vital part of our healing and living.
*Working on getting to know and accept the new me.
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