Hi Mari,
Just from knowing you on the internet, I don't think you are crazy at all. In fact you know yourself pretty good! Most cops do not take you to jail for crying, or even being hysterical. Only if you represent a danger to others or to yourself. We all just hang on to ourselves at times. I am bi polar too, and have had an encounter with a cop at a very bad time in my life. He was wonderful to me, and helped to settle me down. I didn't go to the lock up, psych ward or jail. He just hugged me. I tend to believe that in a crisis, most cops are going to try to do the right thing.
You are a kind and loving person in any light. ginnie