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Originally Posted by markneil1212
Eva,
you have such a big heart and have been through so much. and yet you and these others who have answered my plea really care if i live or die and it is so touching. i can't lie, all i wanted in life was money, cars, women, a fancy house and i was close to getting it all then i fell into a depression and did dangerous thins that led to my subsequent head injuries and downfall. you lost so much and yet you believe that God is there for us. I lost my father 32 years ago and stopped believing then pretty much. i am 46, no kids, everything gone, i feel like i don't matter. what is one person out of 6 billion. why should God care about me. I wasn't happy with money and health. maybe i don't know how to be happy. but i am thankful for you and ginnie and ger who have responded.
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your listening dear mark
you have already expressed
what Isn't important in your life
and you know what
maybe you and i and others
may have felt we don't know how to be
Happy
what is Happy
it could apply in so many areas
but i do know for myself 53
i have been single since my separation in 1984
and divorced
my father decided to kill himself i was 19
long story
shot himself in the heart in his car
left a note
so i kind of get it at this point
and i am sure it has affected many
horrible decisions
didn't have the best prototype for parents
yeah
a pretty poop y hand dealt
but i wouldn't be who i am today
because of all the unfair happenings
my rewards are spiritual
it is fine to have the finer things in life
if acquired with Gods love
do not give up
do not think you do not matter
you do
so start seeing it
you will see it
focus
me