I hear you...I have a very small family, when I say how I'm feeling I just basically get blank stares and no comments, they don't understand this.
I feel as though I will never be the same again, try not to think like that very often and I don't do a whole lot either, I take my dog out, go to Dr's and therapy appts, and time is going by...was suicidal last summer.
I come on here and know I'm understood, the sleeping or rather lack of sleep is killing me, a walking zombie, internal tremors are getting worse, last night they started in my legs and I tossed and turned for most of the night, I just wanted to cry and felt so alone.
I want you to know I am here for you too, I get it, I suppose we just keep on fighting get as well as we can and go from there, good days and bad days...my brain feels like it's literally broken sometimes.
Hang in there, you are not alone