Mark The Lord loves you,and He wants to show you more about who He is. There is a Bible verse in the New Testament,in the book of Romans chapter 10,verse 17 that says this.

So then faith comes by hearing,and hearing by the word of God.

This means to read,or listen to the Bible.

I would recommend that you get a bible,and start reading it. You might want to start with the gospel of John.

I'd also recommend for you to read through the book of Psalm in the old testament. You have nothing to fear reaching out to God. He is there for you,and you are here for Him. Brokenfriend