So yesterday I was heading home with my DN when crunch, someone decided I must be Wonder Woman in her invisible car and drove into my rear quarter panel. A pretty penny's worth of dmgs on a paid off new car, but eh #%@$ happens. And I somehow managed to keep my cool throughout the ordeal minus a rude shout out the window while I was spinning.

DN appeared to be right as rain, a mild headache his only complaint but then he was out in the sun a good bit of the day without sunglasses and had a rude awakening. It was a slow speed wreck, but I still got checked by the seatbelt, and given the bruise growing on the elbow probably whacked the door with it as I tried to control the spin out so we didn't end up in her side.

No air bags went off, and other than a little shaken I felt relatively okay, until... Last night, then the shoulder and neck injured in a previous accident last year started to hurt, then after a shower the hip joined in the pain on the side where the seatbelt clips on the right side and there's a faint little bruise there but not one that you would expect to cause so much pain, after going to bed the lower back also felt the need to jump in, and this morning not to be outdone by the rest the left leg has decided to simply go to sleep minus little hissy fits of shooting pain from the ankle to the hip.

I'm trying to fool myself, that the majority of the pain I feel is simply reactive, brain heard: screech, crunch and said Ohhhh I remember that means all this hurts! But since the MS makes everything so slow to heal I'm not quite entirely convinced that the existing injuries weren't re-exposed. But then MS can also heighten reactive pain.... So now I have a slight dilemma, I can cave to the pain and go running to the doc for narcotics to shut it up, but just like taking antibiotics without a bacterial infection, it dulls the effectiveness when I really do need them.

Or I can battle my way through the pain in the hopes the brain will wake up and realize that it's not really injured, but if it is really injured I run the risk of worsening the injuries.

And if I say, just let the doctors decide, then I'll have yet another legal battle going on punishing me for another's departure from reality, temporary blindness or derby-car flashback. Since the constant nagging calls to lawyers, insurance companies and doctor's offices and the return nagging calls from the latter are brutal, while nothing seems like it will ever be resolved and the bills just keep growing.

What to do? Especially when I feel like taking a nap right now with a plastic bag tied 'round my head, fixing the pain at its source and never needing to worry about a legal battle, ongoing or otherwise.