Thanks, I have gone though almost every single page on google about it. I even used my schools research database.
I asked my Dr about the Tegertol he said the Gabapentin was the better way to go but if i dont have relief after he bumps it up again ill ask for the tegertol.

and i am not opposed to surgery. If i could pack my bag right now and get it I would I am not afraid in the least bit. This has taken away everything I love...school, church, play dates, babysitting, running, reading, the sound of my kids laughing hurts some days I am ready to get on with my life. I know the surgery only lasts about 5 years but i would rather that than take medicine that makes me gain weight or risk changing with side effects. I battle with ridiculous depression and taking the risk of a medicine making me worse no thank you...a crazy mind is the only thing i hate worse than ear pain. If i had consistent help with my kids it wouldnt be as bad but when i am curled up in the closet hiding so they dont see me cry i feel worse. I want/need the surgery not only for me to be pain free but so my kids will stop suffering as well.