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Originally Posted by markneil1212
my life has been hard since I was 14 as it has been for many people. I have sabotaged myself a number of times in life just when things are getting very good. It is what it is and at this point I'd rather enjoy one of the few things I do enjoy which is bad food than give it up lol and live to 50 in this condition. It is a decision I can live with. I sincerely appreciate your concern.
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I hear you.
My husband is a health nut/hypochondriac and is always trying to get me to take bizarre supplements and eat revolting stuff, so I can live to 90. Insensitive clod!
Why on earth would he think I'd want to live with increasing levels of pain and limitation for decades? I just want to last until I launch my child off into the world. After that, I hope I'm allowed to check out quickly.
So, stick the sticky, fermented Japanese bean curd, and pass the Coco Pops. Yes, I realize that this is sort of a form of self-loathing and passive suicide. However, I'm not super cripple, and all that gets me through what I need to get through for my growing child is the knowledge that, one way or another, this will end.
I have done my mommy duty, in trying circumstances. When my eternal rest comes, I will have earned it.