Greg, are you taking Stalevo? It is a little known fact, but a fact nevertheless, that Stalevo causes suicidal thoughts. On my first follow-up neuro appointment after starting on Stalevo and dropping selegiline was: "Do you think about death often?" And, surprisingly enough, I do. It had never happened to me while I was on Sinemet and selegiline. So, the meds you take have a lot to do with it. Make sure you have your drug regimen adjusted immediately and quit fooling around with guns.
Why the **** you want a gun in the house, anyway? (scold, scold... )