I'm going through my darkest days now and this is not going well. I cry constantly and just can't stop.

My cat is sick. The receptionist in our veterinary hospital was talking to me like I'm some kind of retarded or plain stupid person (I didn't get much sleep last night because of my cat that made me even more slow than I already am). I came back home crying. Still crying in fact.

My kids help A LOT. I think they are what helps me to get through my darkest times. They always tell me that I'm the best mom ever. They draw cheering pictures for me (like flowers or trophies for the best mom). I am so blessed to have such wonderful children.

Favorite movies also help. I can't watch much of a TV, but I put them on and I listen. I find that very relaxing + listing to my favorite movies takes my mind off sad things.

Sometimes crying helps. Or kicking the wall. Sometimes you need to let your emotions out so they won't damage you from inside.

Starbucks helps. When I feel down, I go to Starbucks, order myself a latte (I know it's breaking the rules). I sit by the window and watch people or cars. I find that peaceful.

Baking helps. I love to bake. My kids are so spoiled, they don't eat store bought muffins, scones, cupcakes or cinnamon rolls. The only thing I buy is cakes when I need one because I suck at baking cakes.

I'll think of something else that helps.

I pray for you all
Marina