I totally caved today. Drank coffee, and plenty of it.

Wasn't so bad at first. I was unspeakably out of it when I got up, so I had the first cup.

I craved a second all afternoon and all evening, but held out.

Had a second very late evening, and I just now finished my third. These last two were pretty strong too. Probably more like three cups' strength between them.

I feel a bit more normal. Not great but closer to normal.

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oh and I did have a cup of tea also. No, two actually.