Excellent observations/responses all around.

Thaydrian, I've been through it too, from the pain & depression (known as the vicious cycle) to folks (& DW) asking me how I am (or if there's anything they can do for me), to loss of abilities (livelihood/hobbies/interests) & dreams.

For me, knowledge has definitley been power (and a form of salvation). These experiences & feelings are normal/typical/par for anyone with chronic illness, and well documented. They are a form of grief. Being aware of these facets of humanity, and being able to recognize them for what they are as they are experienced/occurring, has helped me immeasurably to cope and survive.

Hope they're helpful,

Doc