For what it's worth - I'm going through some difficulty myself right now. Maybe it will help someone look at their own situation in a different light. Maybe someone will comment and be able to help through their own experience. Maybe not - either way the following is very therapeutic for me so thank you for listening

So - 2 weeks ago I woke up from a vivid dream about the impending death of my father dying of a heart attack (no worries - he is still with us). I had an immense tightening in my gut and I woke up with a gasp of breath, with my heart beating out of my chest. While I journaled as much of the dream as I could remember, I passively noticed my heart was actually skipping a beat every 10x or so.

Since that point, I've been experiencing these heart palpitations on a daily basis - particularly when laying down prior to and after sleeping, and after eating. I have also experienced several other vivid negatively charged dreams since then. Heart Chakra is definitely being influenced.

I've also noticed lingering painful tension in my 3rd chakra - the solar plexus - as if someone punched me in the gut. I have not been able to take a full breath, and the actual area is very tender to the touch.

The 2nd (sacral) and 4th (throat) chakras are also both noticeably "tight," particularly the throat. It feels constricted, as if there is a physical blockage. (There is likely none - I had a scope/barium swallow done years ago for exactly the same feeling. It found nothing - and it was chalked up to acid reflux.)

Beyond these and the heart palpitations, there are a couple of other recent physical and mental issues I've been experiencing over the past 2 weeks -

1) right shoulder pull from wakeboarding (wouldn't let go of the handle when I should have)
2) Left thumb deep bruise from wakeboarding (thumb is indicator of overanalysis and worry)
3) Ravenous appetite for sugar (a coping mechanism when I feel incomplete - "something is missing so I'll fill it up however I can")
4) Lack of joy in everyday activities and overall sense of apathy - "What's the point?"
5) Procrastination - another coping mechanism for me when I am afraid to take action.


For me I, can easily pinpoint the dream as the catalyst for the many of the physical symptoms. I watched, powerless, as my father had a heart attack in the dream in front of me, in the mall, on the floor. It was reality to me - as if I actually exerienced that trauma in waking life.


The solar plexus (where I am experiencing the most tension and pain) is the center of self-worth. It deals with assertion, emotional repression, fear of rejection, and indecisiveness.

The throat chakra (where I am experiencing constriction/blockage, acid reflux) is the center of expression and communication with others. Going deeper and being honest with myself, my throat has felt constricted now for much longer than 2 weeks. It's been closer to 2 months, with it gradually getting more restrictive.

The heart chakra (palpitations resulting from vagus nerve compression) is the center of love and relationships. It deals with compassion, kindness, apathy, and joy. The thoracic region also corresponds with my right shoulder (represents changing direction in life - doing things joyfully and easily.)


To me, the symptoms I am having seem to be very much connected. They all revolve around FEAR.

What am I afraid of? I am afraid of being wrong, and I am most afraid of being wrong publicly - in front of others. I am most afraid that I don't matter. In correspondence with that, I have a massive fear of public speaking. I've been drawn recently to partipate in speaking groups that meet weekly to face it. But I have continued to put it off and justified not going yet by letting other life issues get in the way. Work is busy and dramatic and so is life...



Crap I am doing:

1) Monitoring my breath to ensure diaphragm breathing versus shallow chest breathing
2) Examining diet for any vitamin/mineral deficiencies
3) Walking in nature
4) Taking the time to be in the sun (topless )
5) Physically manipulating the solar plexus tightness by breathing out and pushing the tension downward with my hands and fingers.
6) Drinking a pint of water on an empty stomach, standing on my toes and falling emphatically on my heels (promotes the gut feeling of falling, and the jolt plus the water weight helps pull down the tension to be reabsorbed in the stomach.
7) Determining to follow through on a) facing my fear of public speaking, and b) taking care of the little things so they do not become big ones.
8) Taking it moment by moment - paying attention rather than being lost in the cloud of the monkey mind. (Big one for me - stop and smell the roses, idiot).
9) Anytime I am driving, I am either a) playing music that brings me joy, or b) doing visualization breathing techniques while humming into my solar plexus (528 hz which is roughly a C note)
10) Much weirder stuff - like asking for guidance from my higher self - "I accept that the pain I am experiencing is here by my own doing, and it is here for a positive reason - what is it here to show me? Where are my blind spots? What do I need to learn about myself?" Also doing meditations to accept and release negative entities draining energy from my field. (Told ya it was much weirder stuff.)




At the same time - I am keeping in mind that I could very well be wrong - and at a certain point, if I feel that enough progress is not being made, and the heart palpitations continue, I will go in for a medical opinion, scope, etc. That's the hardest part of being open minded for me - letting go... trusting and having faith in others


Medically speaking - my research indicates I am looking at a hiatal hernia. I've talked to my spouse who is in the medical field and all of the physical symptoms I am experiencing match up. Hiatal hernias also typically come with ileocal valve issues (sacral area) - I have tenderness in that exact spot as well.


Basically - all the metaphysical crap I just wrote can easily be summed up as "hiatal hernia causing acid reflux resulting in a wide range of related symptoms."

But that's only the answer - it's just what it is, not why it is. The medical field tells us they can be caused by stress, diet, genes, drugs, direct trauma, etc. Well guess what - so can everything else!

It is my belief that if I just mask the pain and heal it without accepting it, without learning from it, it will manifest again or mirror itself another way in my life. So I'm here doing my best to learn from mine.

Thanks for reading, and thanks for your feedback!