I didn't get the job. I'm not exactly disappointed about not getting that job, but it's got me pretty down about my future employment.

I think I didn't get it because I didn't prepare as much as I should have but also didn't think it through very well (this is the PCS bit I think) and I prepared for an interview as I have always prepared for interviews in my sector.
But this wasn't the kind of job I would usually do, so my preparation wasn't really relevant and I was entirely unaware of this until after the interview.

This is almost what frustrates me the most, I'm confident I have always been pretty self-aware (friends and colleagues have also said this) and generally I know when I do well and when I don't and why.

I came away from the interview feeling that actually it went alright and it wasn't until they called and gave me feedback to say that my answers weren't really relevant to the job role (as it's more admin and I was focusing on customer service as I've always had a much more frontline role) that I realised I had fudged the whole thing basically.

I know this sort of thing happens to many people at interviews, but I was so unaware of how I had actually done and that's really unnerving.


It's not so much the finance, suffice to say I am lucky enough that I may not have financial concerns now, but I got such a huge amount out of my job, out of being in a position of authority, out of the success I had and my ability to problem solve etc.
Even if I had got that job, it wouldn't do that for me, I think I would be feeling so ***** at feeling like I'd basically been demoted and I'm not sure I would ever get over that.

Also, I couldn't even get a lowly admin job that I'm well over-qualified for, I have no idea what to try for now!

I thinking about doing some volunteer work for the time being, I'm hoping that might help lift me a bit