awww ellie..you found the right spot to post. i'm glad you did.

i dont think i can add much on the advice you have gotten so far...but to say they are right on the mark.

most of us who post here and have been posting together for a long time know the exact feelings you are having. you are the victim ellie. but seeking help for yourself is the first step.

i'm just an im away if you need me.