Dear Befuddled.
I am glad that you are feeling more grounded today.
Sorry that you are feeling alone.
Is there any volunteer opportunities to get you out amongst other people?
A soup kitchen can always use help....or perhaps a human society or some other interest that you have.
Ya know there are chat rooms here with people who are night owls...there are other chat rooms too with yahoo etc. so if you feel like you want to make conntact with another being that is always an option. Also there is a suicide hot line number that I will link for you.
If you did not know There is also a suicide survivor (S.O.S.) forum here as another place for support...it is under the general listing.....
and there is a depression forum too.
I try to get support from different places on line and would encourage you to do this as well.
I am sorry that this is so hard for you....
hang in there better days are coming.

bizi

hot line number to talk to someone.
I got this from another site here:
a hotline number for you to call if you would like
to talk to someone in person:
Phone numbers-

1-800-273-TALK
1-800-273-8255

1-800-SUICIDE
1-800-784-2433