God forgive me not realizing what a good life you blessed me with and for making myself so sick and putting my girlfriend and mother through such heck.

I should have come to this board before I thought things were so bad.

ooh joe got a promotion instead of me. ooh I only made such and such money this year (it was plenty enough) when so and so is worth millions.

ooh I wish I had that girl instead of my girl (when my girl was an angel)

I should have lost the weight and not abuse the body god gave me in so many ways.

Every ungrateful person should have to read some of the stories on this board.

I want Gods forgiveness and I want him to bless all of you who did nothing wrong and received these sicknesses.

I thought I was such a tough guy before all this. I am scared all the time now and I pray for god to take it away

You are braver than me any day of the week, all of you, and I admire you all.