Perhaps it's not disdain but frustration. She most likely feels helpless, in that she wants to do something to ease your pain but its out of her control.

My hubby asks about once or twice a month, and I can tell he's disheartened that I'm not getting better. He's significantly younger than me (13yrs difference), so I live in fear of losing him. He is faithful, it's not that I fear losing him to another woman, but that one day he will have had enough of taking care of a woman who is more 'needy' than his grandmother. That scares me. So I act braver than I am. I collapse in pain when alone. It sounds as though you do too. I get how lonely that is.

I find this forum very therapeutic. Just knowing that there are others like me who will read my words, empathise with my struggles, and offer genuine support makes this more bearable. The folks here are amazing, you are in the right place.

Hope you sort out some new meds soon and get back on track.