Okay my long-term memory is still in tip top condition. Next week I'll remember if I took my meds or not or too many times???... Because my short-term memory has finally left the building. I'm starting to feel like a goldfish, go ahead ask me what happened 3 seconds ago... No clue, aside from the clues I'm leaving by typing this right now.

It wouldn't be such an issue, except my pain mgmt meds aren't working that great, so I'm still in constant pain. The question on the day to day then becomes am I in so much pain because it's a bad day, or because I didn't take my meds? I have already tried setting alarms, which in theory should be the best way right. Like a lab rat, hear the bell, eat the cheese... Except it's not like I carry the medications on my body at all times.

So I hear the bell, hopefully I'm going and eating the cheese with a swig from the water bottle, but if I'm in the middle of something (as it almost always happens, or if I forget to grab the water bottle, definitely happens) then I can't seem to remember if I ate the cheese and went after the water bottle, or did I go after the bottle and then I was suppose to grab the cheese or... Did I even stop what I was doing to go and take the meds or did I ignore the bell entirely???

It has been more pronounced over the past month or so, but now is reaching ridiculous levels of being lucky if I can remember what I was saying by the time I finish my sentence. Next week of course I'll be kicking myself for taking meds twice for one dose and missing three others. As I can now remember happened last week. In the morning I did get up and take my pills, then an hour or so later I went and took them all again, but hey at least that same day I missed two other doses so it evened out in the end sort of.....

I'm also somewhat lucky that they are only muscle relaxants and an allergy med, doubling a dose won't kill me, nor will skipping one, it only puts me in that much more pain if I miss it and really doesn't do much of anything other than waste meds when I double up. Once I get to tripling then eh... Probably no more meds too risky.

But, I just can't think of anything aside from the alarm to give myself an ID 10t warning. Realizing a week or so later that my good day was from an abundance of medication, or that my terrible days were from not getting any meds into me is just not working for me. I've always been prone towards a scatterbrain, but this is encrounching on a whole new level.