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Originally Posted by markneil1212
after 7 years I don't know how to still face everyday with the pain and fear. God please give me the strength to keep continuing that just for myself but for those that love me and worry so much.
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Dear God,
Not much has changed

Can we renegotiate? Can we just get rid of that horrifying pain that i get in the neck/head when I wake up during REM?
I notice I'm the selfish one on the board with everyone else asking for help for others usually.
I was/am selfish. A greedy guy who wanted to own Wall Street. Now I just want enough relief from this head injury to go the distance. I already have 2 really SELFISH suicide attempts under the belt.
I am NOT suicidal right now and KNOW i can live with all the other symptoms.
It's just that this one makes me fear falling asleep.
I am not asking for a great life. I'm not even asking for a good life. Just a bearable one.