You are not selfish. This is why NT is here Mark. Good Lord we all need someone when we are in terrible trouble. I am so sorry for all the symptoms you are experiencing. Also that dark road of depression lurks for all of us when pain becomes the over riding condition of our lives. I am amazed at how many people on NT including you, bear the pain with such dignity and grace. Never ever worry about telling of your pain here Mark. That is the best thing you can do. WE may only be saying hello from a computer, but there really is a live person right here who cares about you. Please continue on trying to get better. Can you read at all? Do you have any activity that helps to diminish the symptoms? Or at least give you a break from them?

Sleep happens for me, when I tend to over do things which I shouldn't. If I wear myself out, I have no choice but to sleep. Sometimes I read until the middle of the night, and just go to sleep with the book on top of me.

Wish you all the best, and that you can recover fully. ginnie