This is a horrible time for you. You have this lousy diagnosis, and you feel like cr@p, and you don't know what your future will be. But it will get better - or should I say, you will adapt better to it.

I know it is hard to believe, but you need time to get to know the 'new you' what you are capable of, and how best to manage it. As with the definition of 'relapsing-remitting' there will be times when your symptoms will abate (sometimes fully, sometimes partially) - there will be days when you feel more 'well' than others.

From my experience (diagnosed RRMS in 2001), the first year - year-and-a-half I didn't even imagine I would still be working, still be walking, still be cognitively sound, driving, socialising and all of the things that make life good 13 years later. As a matter of fact, I never thought I would do any of those things again.

But time went on (as time always does) - I found ways to cope with my symptoms, find my sense of hope and live for a new day, with some lesions that healed, some more that came to visit, and the neuroplasticity of my brain helping me to cope and find new ways to do things.

No, I can't say that the same will happen with you - but don't lose hope and as Morgan Freeman's character in Shawshank Redemption says 'get busy living'

I wish you well, in no way am I discounting the pain and fear you have right now; they are very real - I just want to give you hope if I can.

Kind regards