Sorry to hear that dude. I feel sorry for myself sometimes & neglect to realise the things I can actually do. Maybe I haven't quite learned the life lesson from my situation yet... I hope things improve for you soon dude. And when they do, here are a few links to a few of tracks that blow me away. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do...

PORTISHEAD - ROADS:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Vg1jyL3cr60

ROYAL BLOOD - TEN TONNE SKELETON:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FSWbIBHWAvk

ROYAL BLOOD - LITTLE MONSTER:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ere2Mstl8ww

NINE INCH NAILS - RIGHT WHERE IT BELONGS:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OXSkfTedVb0

PLACEBO - WITHOUT YOU IM NOTHING:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YIRz7zaKGLY

PERFECT CIRCLE - PET:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=m5i3WtvjOHs

TOOL - LATERALUS:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EDlC7oG_2W4

THE STONE FOXES - IM A KING BEE:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xvEtts_67AU

INCUBUS - AQUEOUS TRANSMISSION:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=eQK7KSTQfaw

THE COOPER TEMPLE CLAUSE - THE LAKE:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=PMLuzf6F5uY