sweet Mother
my heart in such turmoil
a sane person i am
today a taste of what the season
has in store for this body
blessed to still have a car
in a couple of years will be needed to be driven
today there is no option in bed
when i was up early again
my body to follow
to pray you give me comfort
of the emotional support
needed to go on
my heart muscle has been
acting up
when on my left side
i feel the irregular rhythm
sometimes the feeling is up my neck
pretty intense at times
the summer gone bye bye
in a heartbeat not a very good one at that
need to get some kind of motivation
would be wonderful if i could be involved in
yoga classes to help strengthen important muscles
it help with balance something i suffer with
and must be careful
most projects are done on the
floor
and to ave my mind not well
makes it that much harder
this morning i was on the floor tending to the garbage
it was the only way
and then to get up help from my kid
i couldn't get up it hurt all over
and then i began to think
i'm still young
i'm so afraid of getting old
with this horrible monster pain
help me be a better mother
and look at the brighter things
that are pure joy and most times
it comes from my family my children
and most certainly my granddaughter
may today be bright
for anyone who feel beaten down
and feel they have no way out
it's so lonely
me