awww sally
i do know how you feel. my brother was my best buddy. it devastated me when he died of cancer. he was only 35.
a loss of a sibling is something that we just can't imagine.
i am so happy that you were able to talk to him. that will be a comfort for you in the future.
may the lord accept him with open loving arms. may he grant you and your family peace to know he is no longer suffering and that he will be watching over you until you are togethr again.
i'm here for you sally.