this a, a pattern for her to
get what she wants and
do what she does
excuses excuses
it's herself and her ungrateful attitude
not a care in the world
as i make a choice everyday
to stick it out
there isn't an option for me
and with that choice comes
much pain in all kinds of forms
and i want to be well and happy
and this monster has a hold on me
it just isn't fair
what is the defense
i am just a person who tries to
find joy in any little thing i do
where will my love for You shine most
i tell her no excuses will be tolerated
i know and try my best
i get turd in return
my own fault
this much i know
i have custody and doing my best
under the circumstances of all i try real hard to do is keep You
alive

alive

Alive i want to be