Hi wildcovey, The great sense of loss was the worst for me. It felt like I was circling the drain. My old life was gone and I was deep into feeling sorry for myself. All the things that I had planned for my retirement, fishing, golf, motorcycle,the things that were to fill my days were now useless. They are still useless but I guess that I have changed. They say that time heals all wounds, so give yourself time. I suppose it is some small consolation that you can almost always find something to be thankful for as long as you are drawing breaths. It sounds corny but count your blessings.
find someone that you can help and that can help you. If only to ***** and vent. If there is a way to reduce external stressors, that may help. I have to remind myself often to quit sweating the small stuff and it is all small stuff,haha. If you have a lot of physical pain, that needs to be addressed.It is hard to get better when you are in agony. Write back and tell us your symptoms. How much pain are you in? Good luck Ken in Texas.