Thanks LitLove, yes I have a college degree and have had office jobs in the past. It's just with my last big break down I have lost complete confidence in being able to do any type of stressful job. Plus with my heart condition, my doctor thinks it best to look for a low key job. When I decide to think about working I will check with SSA about my options and go from there. All I know is that this in itself is making me extremely anxious and not helping my mental illness at all. My therapist says that there are plenty of jobs for disabled people and that they are able to keep their benefits, so I'll just have to follow all of the rules and have faith that all will be ok. I can't live at my mom's forever. Thanks so much for your input.
Canswicky