my dear friend Gerry
i it is so
and the only way to move on
my faith of a miracle
or a new medical finding
to address problems a person may suffer
it has been found embryos are not a option
only for science learned of taking the DNA
of our own self and stem cell may move forward
not taking from a child
i am sure the blood of a newborn from umbilical cord
is precious for internal family line
but that's another issue
this when being reminded everyday why i have to take my meds
in the morning and wait about forty minuets
then to forget and look in the mirror
and be reminded after two years
my oncologist says upon a physical touch
tells me to go back to the reconstructive doctor
there is something wrong
as i had told my augmentation doctor two years after
i was deemed healed and released only what eventually
told to me upon my post two year oncologist recommend
visit and have the truth be told what is called a double bubble
you have followed me enough to understand
a visual reminder of being lied to as with my neurosurgeons
mistake and never owned up to it
resentments Will kill a person
so i try to remember every day
to pray for them
not close to that yet
too not be able to have a feeling of being heard
that they not hurt patients
to be violated on a sexual level by a transporter
employee to take patients from A to B and back to A when a procedure such as an MRI is done
to be lied too at every level possible
is tough
i'm working on it
better most days
the emotional roller coaster draining
to the deep depression that has invaded this mind
something i haven't experienced before as where i am
Now
i have to remind myself
i am needed
no matter how i feel
i have no option at the moment
my love of family
God blessed me with
and to have to be there after they fall
is a must
no option
i know you understand
Corissa send her hello
and hope your doing better
in Jesus i Trust
in His name
Amen

thinking of you