Sooooooo. I haven't been around in forever. I ended up recovering way more than they ever expected. YAY ME!!!

Unfortunately, I am back sliding right now so bad I don't even know what to do about it. I moved to California and was doing great. i got a great job that is slow pace and pays well and I got married.

I'm at work so I'll just get my problem out. I am having MASSIVE anxiety. I mean so bad I can barely breathe. I have no idea how I have managed to stay at work today and there is no way for me to take any time off. My hands are literally shaking, it feels like a panic attack but it doesn't end.

Many other setbacks but I am short on time and the anxiety is the worst and is almost crippling. I don't know what to do. Has anyone else backslid after this many years of decent progress?

there is a TON of stress and pressure on me right now and no end in sight to it. I'm sure that has a lot to do with it but I need help and bad bad bad.

Any personal experiences or advise ASAP is very appreciated. I'm freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!!