Thanks, Steve.

This October got off to a crazy start for me. I been madder than a hatter the past few days. Off my rocker and over the falls.

There is a lot of happiness in me, but it's hard to feel it, amidst the nerves, irritation, anger, profound sadness, and fear... lots of fear. All that stuff is intense... an intense crazy emotional medly. Not easy to roll with. Yesterday I thought that I would explode.

The nervous anxiety has been setting off my obsessive tendencies, and the obsessive patterns in turn exacerbate the anxiety.... rabid dog chasing tail.

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Doing ok/better tonight. A reprieve of sorts, perhaps. A drug-induced reprieve, hehe, second night of lorazepam.

Hooray for lorazepam. And I'll drink to that. And smoke. And the kitchen sink.

waves