Thank you Justice, my heart is breaking too and I am just a mess. I too had difficult time growing up with my mother. I was her target when things were going wrong and she is my trigger to bring me onto that emotional rollercoaster. I have tried hard my entire life time to keep things peaceful and know when to stay away but have also built a wall around me. My two allies have died within 6 months of one another, my aunt in December and now my father.

I have my daughter, my dog and kitten who have been wonderful. And the love and memory of my father.

Take care of yourself and I will keep you in my prayers.