It is ok to feel the way you do. You wouldn't be normal if you didn't. I agree with Vrae. it will be ok. I don't know how or when it will work for you. Remember this the only thing that stays the same is that every thing changes. I know when you are in pain with the crps it is not fun. It hurts not only physically but emotionally too. When you really cant stand it any more you can rant and rave and vent here just as you have done today. Screaeaeammm if you will. Hang in there sending good vibes and positive thoughts your way. I will remember you tonight in my prayers.