Thanks for sharing with me..I guess to be honest I feel like I am feeling sorry for my-self,at this point and I need to stop..I am usually happy go lucky..Right now I am pretending I am..The pain overwhelms me sometimes.I feel like how do I cope through these rough days????I should tell you alittle of was I have been going through..Mostly stress..I had to get new insurance was the first nightmare,which left me with doctor bills from old pain management.Stress...
Finally get a new doctor,and felt like I had started all over again...Stress...put me on a waiting list just for trial...well that did not go over well..See I was all set for trial in Dec..with old doc but then Insurance changes left me without Doctor or hospital...They denied me coverage...So that's what started this nightmare..But I kept my faith that God was watching out for me.Well a lot of fighting I finially had the trial...I was reactions to tape too..I already knew I had reactions to iodine..so that was a good thing.The trial actually went well.I guess I knew what was going on at that point..It was hard sleeping and adjustments..Then another waiting list for surgery..I was in so much pain while waiting.Had to up meds.I kept praying for something to change.While waiting A new stress..My son and his wife were having twins...GREAT NEWS...BUT,,his wife does not like me.I belief its because I remarried..The twins were going to have split grandparents...and your point right !!!!The thing about stress makes RSD a lot worse.My heart is so broken because now I cannot see the Twins..My son and I were fine,she did not like that..so I was not aloud to know when she was due,the hospital she was going to,and the day they were born I was called 3 hours later..I was invited on the 3rd day..I saw them,which I was so happy.my grandson was in ICU.my granddaughter was doing well.My grandson was low sugar and had to be watched.I was told the mother of the wife and family were all there for days..Long story short stress is not well for me.I really try to deal with this..Never got to hold them.i have tried to reach out to them but they will not let me.I was told if I do they will have me arrested..They got mad at me for pretecting my other sons feelings..Because during all this with me I treated him the same way..Momma bear got really mad so I told them about that..So I am the bad person..So long story short,I am thinking this why I do not feel well. stress can you us up..I am so tired of pretending I am okay..I just want to scream..I feel that my stimulator helps some but I feel my biggest issue is stress..My heart is so broken that it makes it hard to deal with every day issues.I have the stimulator hitting the right stops,its just not enough..During the fourth week I tore the lines in my back by beading over not thinking and fell over backwards.I had to be checked out and readjusted...Had to go back again later for another adjustment..i still feel the locations are right,but with all this stress its holding my progress back..I just told my husband I could care a less if I ever get out of bed again..I am that depressed..I would be happier here laying here than going camping on Friday..During my charging I leave it on most of the time..Once I did not and had to stop charging and turn it back on..Sorry if I went over the top with my problems,but I think that is what is holding me back on healing..Mentally and phsyically ..but then again its just hard getting used to having this in you knowing its going to always be there..Extra steps to getting ready to do things,,shower,driving or even laying down.. Still taking meds..and sometimes I have to bump back up ..Its just hard working too.oh ya do you guys feel cold a lot too?i have to wear socks sometimes in bed..hate that..lol..I guess it was going to be this big greatest thing and it was a let down when I still feel like crap..but like my hubby says,we need to move forward and deside if we should move ahead with grandparents rights or try to wait out the storm,meaning my son wake up and see she is pushing all of his family away..Me,my other son and his wife,and my Aunt and Uncle..He has changed so much..Well I guess enough said..sorry for spilling it all out,but it felt good to share..Thank you all...