Awe, Chris. I'm so sorry, this has to be just devastating for you and hub. Greta and her husband are in the process of adoption, hopefully, she'll chime in with some ideas for you.

You are NOT a failure, that position is for those who never try. Bearing a child does not define a woman as an individual, and I, for one, happen to think you are an exceptional individual who will make an exceptional parent.

Please take time to grieve your loss and try to regroup. There is hope, and I am praying for you and hub.