you know, i have turned into a devil myself lately. i constantly scream at my kids, i am not happy with my friends and my husband can do nothing right. he brought me breakfast in bed this morning and i yelled at him because 1. he turned on the light and 2. it was 6:25!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like a selfish, mean, nasty ***** all the time. i feel sorry for my kids and i feel like they hate me. i mean, why shouldn't they? i hate myself most of the time. i have gained 25 pounds and i can't seem to shake it off. all i want to do is eat sugar and go to sleep. i am afraid to get another nerve block, but i feel like my medicine isn't going to be enough after awhile. i am waiting for the other shoe to drop. i have stress everywhere and it's constantly closing in on me.

SHEESH! i wanted to reply to YOU, not rant and rant about my own issues. i am so sorry. i just wanted to say that you aren't alone. i don't know who i am anymore and i wish i could tell you that it is just a season. for what it's worth, i totally feel your pain.

shalom,
angie