angie,
thank you for that. With you saying how you felt, made me realize that the happy go lucky mary that used to be, seems to be hiding. Why do we get to be so hostile to everyone? at least I'm not along. that in itself make me feel better.

carose,
thank you. i think I may suggest therapy. i see my doc this tues. and I will let hi know how i've been feeling (if I remember lol). Hubby is going with me, but I'm gonna make him stay out while I talk to doc. I try to be happy and upbeat so he doesn't worry. He hates it when he can't fix things.

Mary