have i not been the mother i have hoped to be

do my action or lack of option reason enough

i had to close the door behind me

have i not been a good role model

even in my darkest times

there is no option

she is a mommy

her pain i understand

though i am taking care of my grandchild

and have temporary custody of her

operative word temporary

this entire family is suffering

WHY

what have we done in our past

that was so terrible

what is it we are all suffering in one way or another

what makes my daughter think she can check out

with a baby that is waiting for her to make a home for them

if i have no option nor does she

we are both mothers

my tough love i'm afraid might have pushed her over the edge

and because she was not successful

i find myself very sad and very very angry

all i can say is

REALLY?

me