and you know i know it

it is just my make up

taking care of one thing or another

i also do understand the

it is what it is

i am very careful what i ask for

then the mother factor

wanting to protect

yet fully understand

i control no one but myself

and what i say

to be impeccable with our words

living with the fear every time the phone rings

is not living

in fact i become more isolated

as i deal with out of sight out of mind

and even that takes seemingly forever

my mind

my mind

needs a shut off switch

i am never alone

as much as i feel lonely

and i am thankful for my family

never ever ever has it ever been a thought

"i wish i never had children"

thank you Father

me