You do know what it is like to give up a career, or at least have to make compromises. I could tell that you were June Cleaver to the 10th power. I am sure that ALL your family thinks so even if some of them have overriding agendas. I also have one or two that are way too entitled. That comes with the territory when you love and protect to the degree that you do. I remember your posts to me when I was about as freaked out as a person could be and I thank you. It sounds like your career has changed, and all change is hard. You might not be the Tazmanian Devil you used to be but you are still in there using your brain to cope with diminished abilities. Surely over the years you have built up some brownie points and a few get out of jail cards. Guilt should be tempered with the fact that you are still trying so hard!!!!! I apologise for so much dime store psycology but encouragement is all I have to give. Fight the good fight, I salute you,Ken in Texas