I hate days like this and they are just getting too frequently my pain is bad, I can't focus, I can't think straight, I hurt too much to sleep, I'm too cranky to hang out with anymore. I just feel like an ugly burden anymore. last week I lost someone very close to me and my pains been horrendous since. My pts says it is the stress...I don't know. I just wish I wouldnt wake up anymore. I know that's a horrible attitude. I keep trying to look for the good but I can't even enjoy the good anymore.