oh sweet Jesus
i knew this would come
sooner than later
getting better was not happening
so my request for a extended
leave without pay be granted
until either a miracle pill
become available
or better than that
a miracle happen
it will be my last and final
approval
as Only God knows
what was recommend by the
what is called an "association"
his title president
George and myself along with a handful of persons
were advised to say i had taken a fall
some took his suggestions
i on the other hand told him
i would expose him to the Mayor
now i understand the position
however i never wanted not to work
it is my lively-hood
he knows what he is capable of
and won't do anything that isn't allowed
in the next few months i must contact Medicare
and hope my daughter and myself covered
i worry
how will i pay for mine or Corissa's medicines
what else to add or actually take away from this crappy
hard way of life
i'm sick of it
i did the right thing
me and my children would have been taken with my first
person who fell in love with me
Danny Martin was his name
couldn't take advantage of a person in
that way with a few more possible
ones thinking back
turned them all down
i had a job to raise my children
jeez when Danny came into my life
i just started my waitress career
nights full time 8:00 P.M. to 5:00 A.M.
five nights tuesday evening till my weekend
sunday 5:00 A.M. two days off for the next 12 years
my eldest was four then two and 3 and a half months
then in the of my own business
worked the corporate world but it was never enough
i always worked two jobs
and now This
sucks
getting angry
me

i understand everything for a reason
and that to me means
GOD's plan