long gone
out of their house
no more abuse
i'm on my own
no cell phones yet
and i did not have
a phone yet
turns out
mind you
hearsay from mother
and sisters

my father had a prank
done to him from his foreman
a addition to pushing him over the edge
possibly
however him and my two uncles
worked together till his
death
my father was being given a lesson
with this prank that he was fired
for a physical fight he had with his forman
sticking up for his brother

well sometimes i would think
its been a huge factor
be it may
his job was what defined him
in a huge way especially as
a immigrant who became a citizen of this country

in the end the employers
that pulled this prank
was not the intent to fire him
but scare him

point

it sucks
to have had the boat
pass on by soooooooo
many times
and now i am not employed
as of April

if all for a reason
a little loving feeling
would be great right
now

i will always feel a void

i am not speaking of the title "Mother"

fighting this mind of depressed thoughts
and believe God has something prepared
down the road
me