Totally understand!! I was a police officer for 13 years and lost my career. I have CRPS in my left arm and neck so no more running around playing cops and robbers No more horseback riding, no more cake decorating. I am slowly learning to move on and let go of that life but I am determined to keep going and build another life with new hobbies. Hang in there... there are a lot of us in the boat with you and we will be here for support.