I also am glad your attempt failed and I understand that you want your life to change, not end. Your daughter needs you so please put her needs first. I am worried about your present living situation....do you feel safe? There is a great link at the top of this forum in the stickies...please look there for information about safe places and consider them.

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread238.html

I'm so glad you found us...please continue to post. Hugs