I'm finding my thoughts difficult to organise to please excuse this response if it seems abrupt or a bit jumbled. This is in conflict with my logical nature: which ties in part to why I wrote the post like I did. I find it easier to be objective about othr people's stories but am becoming increasingly aware of my lack of personal awareness.

1. I didnt report my sister becasue shes my is sister. She sent a nasty email which I didnt reply to and i havent spoken to her since. Apparently my mum, on fone, told her to come back for us tho she lied about what had happened.

Mark-

I will have to politely disagree with you regarding problem/symptoms. this was something I was looking into before the injury. Simply treatin the syptoms is not good enough because the problem remains...continuing to provoke symptoms. If you had a cut that was bleeding profusely you would not just replace the blood loss but also sew up the artery to stop the blood loss. Problem and symptoms should both be treated, hand in glove if you will.

For medical professionals to properly do this they need an acurate picture of what the problem is and how the symptoms manifest. I do not have any help and clearly I have not even realised the extent of either inury or symptoms. Normlly I am the strong/practile person in the family.

This is why I agree with Hockey and started taking a good look at myself. I'm using this place to organise my thoughts as you all understand and certainly offer good advice/perspective. thank you all.

I dont realise the totally of "dont trust..." ut i am trying to. because im logical it seemed best to start at the begining and go from there. On the headway site they take this approach saying that the level of trauma does effect the extent/duration of symptoms that follow. which makes sense. in a moment i'll do another reply pointing out what each stage of my reaction to injury meant. it will take while, pleas be patient.

I am not necessarily blaming the dr for my lack of care but have since found out that it is commo practise to send someone who has a head injury and bleeding from the ear immeddiately to A&E. He didnt, ust told me to rest with no pain meds. The second Dr I saw was not happy with this, so it isnt just me or my frustration/impairment.