I know this may not be understood, but the pain of living, with no relief, for over 30 years. The loss of all friends and family. The Lonliness on top of unbearable pain, make death a welcome relief.

I am not being morbid ... just honest. Sometimes, enough is enough. I may be all alone in my feelings.

And, I believe the last straw was the loss of family and friends when things took a turn for much worse almost three years ago. Because, loneliness and abandonment are extraordinarily painful.