Hi there everyone,

I have recently learned that I have an Arachnoid Cyst in the left frontotemporal region of my brain. I suffer terrible pressure type headaches, foggy vision in my left eye and a lot of mental and psychological problems. I have not felt like myself in a few years and figured it had to do with my PTSD or the depression associated with it. I suffered many head traumas while in the Military from Helicopter crashes, vehicle collisions and crashes. I have lost relationships with friends and loved ones, and most recently watched my girlfriend walk out on me due to my manic depression and mood issues, I get angry at times for no reason at all and have become socially withdrawn over the years, having always been a happy friendly person this all has troubled me and literally ruined many aspects of my life. I attend group therapy for my PTSD and until recently hadn't had an MRI of my head in several years. The Cyst was detected just last week leaving me upset and saddened that this has been ruining my life and relationships, I know I should be lucky that I now have a definitive answer as to why I have felt and acted the way I have But I can't get over how I have hurt people and myself it seems this Cyst is a direct cause but I know I still must take responsibility for my actions. Since all I really have is my dog and though she knows something is wrong with me she is unable to help me cope with this and I am worried I mean when the DR told me I needed endoscopic brain surgery all I heard was BRAIN SURGERY!?!? I am getting scared and worried, and only hope I can find comfort in knowing what has caused my problems.
Thank you kindly everyone for taking the time to read/respond to this, much love.