dear David

please no sorry
the emptiness that plagues me
came out of nowhere
it has nothing to do with my children
or so i believe
i continue to live in this darkness of mine
that strips me of wanting to go on
and because i have NO choice
something my father did not think of
he would have been 82 this month
i am horrified that i am in this state
i just baffles me
how badly could he have felt
to take his own life
because i am just broken
broken
broken
and i cannot find a way to fix it
get rid of it
i hate feeling like this
and my family seeing it
cuts me to pieces
saying all day i'm sorry
more than ever
i ask God everyday
just a little happiness
i don't even fell like myself
in a constant state of depression
happiness please
not to mention lonely
get to know who your friends are
i rather the truth
no sorry i feel it too
me