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Originally Posted by BlueMajo
I have been feeling soooooo down these days.... Suicidal to the point I wrote a letter saying goodbye to everything and everyone.... DONT WORRY. i wont do it.... Im too tired to even try....
The reason: frustration and failure like always....
Saw my therapist and yeah, everything he says make sense, but my brain simply cant process the info, believe what he is saying and feel better... I keep feeling blue and miserable even with therapy, meds and supplements...
Sorry, I needed to vent. Im tired of feeling, Im tired of my brain being awake and saying silly things 24/7.... It wont stop....
Thanks for listening.
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dear friend if i may
i read and reread reread
as my therapist i am with for several years
tells me life has been difficult for me
but i must remember i have people who i am
responsible for
therefore not an option
and i ask him
i am tired of feeling as i do
i do not look to be depressed
my brain never stops
hence i don't like being awake
i am tired of crying
no one to really grasp what
my innards ache from the depressing
situations i have no control over
i now mourn a job gone because
i cannot move as i did
i'm scared so scared
and i can't shut the lights out
another one stuck
i hate it
i sorry you are hurting
me